Dear Luvlee,
…his darkness was attracted to my bright light and while I was hoping that that light would be enough to brighten his light-his darkness was reaching out to my darkness, my shadow…
Whispering pain into my heart, his darkness reaching out to my own…”Drown with me and we’ll become one”, “it’s safe down here”, but it wasn’t safe and I didn’t want to drown.
The walls and boundaries he made whenever he became too vulnerable or too attached, was like little stings of hurt brewing into holes of insecurities that would be later realized in future relationships or potential relationships.
He’s not him, I remind myself, when the both familiar and unfamiliar taste of fear comes along. The feeling of uncertainty driving me into a wicked spiral of fuck offs and I don’t need this.
He’s not him, I remind myself when the pace seems slow, but the movement in my mind has moved so fast that my heart hasn’t even had the chance to process-much. He’s not him, he’s not him, he’s not him and I KNOW that he’s nothing like him.
I reached for my cards, “guide me” and the cards said “your emotions are running high, Surrender to the Divine, because Luck is your on side in this New romantic cycle that you are beginning”.
Love Always,
Luvlee B💕
