{"id":623,"date":"2026-08-30T17:39:45","date_gmt":"2026-08-30T23:39:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/?p=623"},"modified":"2026-08-30T17:39:47","modified_gmt":"2026-08-30T23:39:47","slug":"dear-luvlee-this-time","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/?p=623","title":{"rendered":"Dear Luvlee: This Time"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-1 wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"color:#1f7a43\"><em>Dear Luvlee,<\/em><br><br>Is it even real?<br>I mean how can this be real?<br>I try to write,<br>I try to think,<br>I feel like I&#8217;ve been here before,\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-2 wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"color:#1f7a43\">All the what ifs, maybes &amp; do i really want this or is this all in my imagination\u2026<br>I think if I really wanted this, like really wanted this, then I would have it right?\u00a0<br>I think if this was really meant to be, then I wouldn&#8217;t have to question it right-it would just <em>be<\/em>? <em>Right<\/em>?\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-3 wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"color:#1f7a43\">But then every time I hear u say \u201cwe\u201d, \u201cus\u201d or \u201cour\u201d <br>my brain flips inside out &amp; I think <em>maybe\u2026just maybe we can actually be \u201cwe\u201d<\/em><br>when we laugh, joke &amp; just be together I think\u2026this feels nice, safe\u2026right<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-4 wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"color:#1f7a43\">But then it happens, I find myself back in my sadness again, <br>My heart wants to close &amp; I know it&#8217;s time to run, to flee, to release &amp; actually let go-no reservations needed\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-5 wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"color:#1f7a43\">I think is this self sabotage? <br>Am I just purposefully creating damage?<br>Am I breaking my own heart?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-6 wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"color:#1f7a43\">This time it will stick, this time I will be freed, this time is for real, this time\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-7 wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"color:#1f7a43\">Always,<br><br><em>Luvlee B<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-8 wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"color:#1f7a43\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>Want the next letter?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-9 wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"color:#1a5b43\"><em><a href=\"https:\/\/preview.mailerlite.io\/forms\/1895241\/181236943228503430\/share\">Be a part of the Luvlee Universe and have the next Dear Luvlee letter find its way to your inbox<\/a><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I think is this self sabotage?<br \/>\nAm I just purposefully creating damage?<br \/>\nAm I breaking my own heart?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":624,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"A poetic love letter about uncertainty, what-ifs, and the quiet space between holding on, letting go, and wondering what comes next.","jetpack_seo_html_title":"Dear Luvlee: This Time | A poetic love letter","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_seo_schema_type":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1,29],"tags":[74,69,47,71,70,38,32,54,40,36],"class_list":["post-623","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dear-luvlee","category-letters","tag-conflict","tag-dearluvlee","tag-love","tag-love-letter","tag-loveletter","tag-luvlee-letters","tag-overcoming-fear","tag-poetry","tag-seasonal","tag-soulful-writing"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/08\/Your-paragraph-text-5-e1788063403752.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/623","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=623"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/623\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":630,"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/623\/revisions\/630"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/624"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=623"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=623"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/luvleec.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=623"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}